Cultivating in 2018

I think 2018 may be my best year yet.  I have such high hopes for this year and what it will bring to my life. I recently wrote about resolutions and finding Lara Casey and her company, Cultivate What Matters.  It's been inspiring for me to work on myself.  To dig deep and uncover the old junk that no longer has a place in my life.  If you know me personally, you know that I've been working on myself for 20+ years.  Each year, uncovering a little bit more.  Peeling away at that onion in hopes of finding my life's purpose.  What it is I'm meant to be and even more important, what it is I'm meant to DO.  What is my calling?

 

Before I began this journey, I felt like my word of the year was light.  Everything I wanted and needed pointing to light.  Whether shining a light on the things I needed to let go of or lighting the way for my journey or how I wanted to feel in 2018....all of it was light.  My friend, Dana, sent me one of those online quizzes that helps you figure out your word.  I played along, even though I knew my word was Light.  The funny part about this is that my quiz ended up being right on the money.

Once I started to get down to business in my Powersheets though, this thought changed.  A LOT.  I kept writing and digging deep into the things I had held onto for so long.  Do you know what I found?  Fear.  Yep, good old fashioned fear.  Fear of just about everything from letting go of my past that I wore like a badge of honor, to fearing failure, or even worse....fearing success.  It was fear that was paralyzing me.  Keeping me stuck where I am.  Today, I am no longer going to let fear rule me.  I am going to work through it and move past it.  As I wrote out lists and spent time in my journal, I spent time thinking and asking....what is the opposite of fear??  Because whatever it is...I'm going to be that!  It wasn't long before I realized what that was.....

My Word of the Year is BRAVE.

I am so excited about my word.  It's as if I've never thought that I needed to be brave.  I thought I was always brave.  Digging deep made me realize that I may have had a brave face, but was I really being brave or was I afraid that someone would see behind that mask and know that I was afraid. 

This is the year that I will be brave and DO all of the things I've always wanted to do.  I will challenge myself and push myself a little further to be the woman I am meant to be.  I will be strong, faithful, and true to myself.  If you could do anything and not fail, what would you do?

Happy New Year, friends!  Be the best you, you can be this year!

xoxo,
Laurie